It seems like it is getting more often that everyday at the end of school, I ask myself this question, "Why am I here?" It has become increasingly clear that I really want to pursue photography. I do not find joy and satisfaction doing schoolwork anymore. I'm just going to accomplish my work and all I expect isn't to excel but to just, plainly pass. I just want to get through this course, for my mum and dad, nothing else. I will indulge myself in photography club projects cause that's the only thing in school that I really feel passionate for. I don't care about marketing anymore, I don't care about doing filming, I don't care. I am most probably going to be one of the people who does very little work in the team unless if it requires me to use my camera or paint. So if you have me in your team, I say sorry in advacne. I never knew I am going to turn out like this. I wanted to excel and be one of the best students. Dropping out of school was like a tear to my safety net in my life. But now, I would gladly drop out of school and focus on photography. Maybe it is the lack of sleep I have been having these past few days to make me think this way. But sometimes, it is only when you are in a mess when you realize things.