Sunday, November 08, 2009,
My childhood.
I want the doll this christmas<3
11:09 PM
Thursday, October 22, 2009,
stay bright, little fireflies
first week of school with what seems to be a large amount of work piled up right infront of me. video introduction, voice recording, powerpoint presentation, etc. before we could even adapt to the change of environment (come on, two months) they gladfully start giving. however tutorials and lectures were quite fun.
still feels odd to be in school. i haven't got used to the routine. but i gues it takes time.
i still..
love you so much
first week of school with what seems to be a large amount of work piled up right infront of me. video introduction, voice recording, powerpoint presentation, etc. before we could even adapt to the change of environment (come on, two months) they gladfully start giving. however tutorials and lectures were quite fun.
still feels odd to be in school. i haven't got used to the routine. but i gues it takes time.
i still..
love you so much
8:10 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009,
Love is not for the easily defeated or the quickly disillusioned. It takes courage and determination to Love.
It's when she uses that tone on me that I feel shitter than shit itself.
It's when she goes on and on about how she does so much for us and we do nothing for her that I feel misjudged.
It's when she thinks of me as a person with no shame, no morals, no heart and not her daughter that I feel like crying.
Mom, why do you do this to me?
I loathe you.
It's when she uses that tone on me that I feel shitter than shit itself.
It's when she goes on and on about how she does so much for us and we do nothing for her that I feel misjudged.
It's when she thinks of me as a person with no shame, no morals, no heart and not her daughter that I feel like crying.
Mom, why do you do this to me?
I loathe you.
You.make.me.so.much.colder.and.so.full.of.resentment.
More about my week tommorrow, right now I am off to bed to sleep it off.
12:00 AM
Thursday, October 08, 2009,
It is amazing how people can just walk into your life, make a space for themselves, and leave the next moment.
Dear xxxx,
Are we still friends? We were like blood-sisters. We could relate to everything that was happening in each other's lives. You knew me better than some of my closest friends. We shared our passion for fashion, food (especially dessert), and some of our deepest secrets. We had random weekends that were filled with so much talk, fun and laughter. But we fell just like that, we fell apart. For a reason that I have not discovered until now. I thought our friendship was strong but it fell like fragile pieces. You meant so much to me. I have made excuses for your lack of presence but it seems that I can't find anymore reasons. I can't feel you anymore. So I will ask one final time, are.we.still.friends?
It is time for change.
1:05 AM
Friday, October 02, 2009,
To the most amazing boy ever to walk into my Life,
If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true
I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you
you make my world so bright and alive
thankyou for never giving up on us
for always being beside me through the good and bad times
for doing so much to put a smile on my face or to make me laugh
thankyou for making me feel special and loved
you mean ALOT to me, I <3 you.
don't leave me now (ever)
7:16 PM
Monday, September 07, 2009,
thankyou for five lovely days.<3 you
When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.
When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.
12:55 AM
Thursday, August 27, 2009,
I feel there are a lot of things I do, is to prove myself.
Have I ever done anything for me?
Oh wait, yeah photography.
I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster
I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster
I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster I want a hamster
D:
We take things for granted.
"I am here for you" (But what if you were the one who hurt me?) 
12:46 AM
